before i reached that age where i learned to get angry at incompetence, bad music, and differing theology. before dancing was a sin. before i noticed that make-up wasn’t just for the weekend and bought clothes that cost more than 50 pesos. that most teenage creations pale and are criticized with good reason. before i learned that people let you down and you’re not supposed to forgive them. that people say “friends off” and mean it. that things actually change. that we need to be responsible. that you could miss a place so much you always resented. and the people we once loved get married to other people.
and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time.